Hey! It's been a long time since I have not posted any blog in here..hmmmm...so busy with many things with life. I am presently now in the Europe...actually too far from home. But I am enjoying my stay although there are days that I will freak out coz I miz the fun back home. It doesn't stop me either to move on now...I am still the same me after all. Things maybe different now...needs a lot of adjusting to self and to my new environment. The first few days was the worst. I needed to adjust with time difference and I am thankful that my body clock cooperates with the adjustment. Sleeping hours is not a whole lot of problem. The only troubles I have here for the past months is the battle of the language barrier. I needed to learn it and understand it. People couldn't understand me..except for the one true person I know. Well, it was interesting in a way but hard in the sense. I am filled up of worries at times coz i am absolutely careful with words and the way I understand some of those words. There were freaky crazy nights where I sleep with my tears on coz I really been wanting to learn the language soon. But it needed a lot of courage, determination and hardwork. For now, I am still learning. Although I know some common words now but then again its not possibly be acceptable and understandable. I need to learn more and more each day... In a way, I am thankful for some people who understands me. It pays sometimes to be a foreigner in a certain place coz people will no end up with no choice but to understand u. Heheh!
Living far from home sometimes scares me and made me mean. That somehow hoping for some possibilities that they are just near me, especially on times that you needed someone who has the same with yours. Dealing with a different lifestyle now is one thing I really like so much. It gives out the best in me and that I learn more by myself. I still don't deny the fact that I am too dependent still with one person...hmmm...its gonna be at first actually. and soon I will learn it on my own. Hopefully I could ride a bus on my own and go to places I would wanting to see. The old me is transforming into something new. Just like a butterfly that is ready to fly. Although I been flying on my own for a time now...it still give me idea that I needed to fly more on my own and spread my wings in the other end. Whatever I am talking here..I think it was all a product of my imagination and my unique mind.
On my absence here, there is really so many things been happening. As much as I really would want to share it and at times it needed only private moments to capture it only in memory. Whatever is been happening to me for the past few months..for sure its something so new and exciting. Every step I made in life are wonderful moments that is so precious..may it be sad or happy at times. Inspite of all that, I remain constant with my emotion and cheerful with my disposition. After all, all these precious moments in life are by products of the choices we made.
Another thoughts that I would want to share is the moment of solitude I felt to some people. I was hoping they are the people who is more excited than me to know what is happening to me now...but then again none of their existent resumes in my everyday of waiting. So I'd rather chose to share it here and bubbles to people who don't know me. Perhaps they are the one who can understands me. I may lose track of my old friends now, it doesn't mean I will stop to be a friend too..they are part of this life's journey. In the end what is life after all without differences of the everyday.
Whatever it is in my life now, I know I am still the old simple princess of my own little world.
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