'What a feeling!'

I'm crying! Yes I am crying.... not because I am sad nor depressed. I missed home...my family...my friends..the usual life I used to live with. But this is it! this is the life I chose. No regrets and no doubts about the life I have now. I am happy...so very happy! And damn proud being committed for life. Some friends doubted and questioned my decision of settling down in the edge of my career. But I guess, there are times in our life that we have to give up our greatest dream to pursue another horizon that we think more fulfilling.

I woke up today gasping some air to breath...my heart beats so fast...and the big kick of my baby inside alarms me. Seems my baby knows what I am feeling at the very moment. Trying to calm myself....consoling myself that it will be alright. I can't exactly describe what i wanted..what exactly I am feeling. Maybe because I am supressing my feeling for the past days. I haven't talked to anyone lately....so many friends I consider real friends...but none of them existed to tough my back. It is true, I need to define who my real friends are. Yes! I am dissappointed to everyone...to each one. Sometimes, I find talking to strangers is far better than talking to a friend you've known for so long. They don't judge nor condemned you. Now, that defines some of my feelings for today. Well..well..well, that gives me a feeling of great relief.

Now, let me count who really are my friends..........hope your one of them.