When was the last time?

Recently my psychotic..psychedelic (weird me) feeling strikes back. I do not know if I am depressed or just simply bored with everything. Actually, I am typically a person who easily gets bored when left with nothing to do or that stayed in one place for long. Well, my life for the past months were just about being with baby..taking care of her 24 x 7 x 365. For a weirdo like me, it can really bores me. Though, I love to be with my baby all day long. Just that, I needed to rejuvenate and smell fresher air sometimes. I tried to confide G about this..but I just got the same answer from him. What will we do? He will be taking a whole week leave of work next week..hope we can just go around with baby. I need to go out or else I'll get insane. Grrrrr!

Is this feeling something to do also with the recent issue in the family ? (I did not blog it here...its too personal)..maybe? or that one should just need to have fun...to spend some leisure hours just being by their own selves?

Alright...alright...I am thinking...hmmmm.

When was the last time .....

I laugh out loud?
just being with myself?
eats slowly & munching the food?
I went to the mall?
spend hours in the bathroom?
sleep 8 hours or more straight?
staring nowhere?
travelling?

The answer: That I do not know & remember anymore. Those are just some of the things I am deprived of these days and really miz doing it and wanting to experience it again....

This is life now....