'TIME TO CHANGE'

Juggling through the archives of my old journal, I found this poem...a very old poem. It was composed year 1998. The year where I was totally insane about life and love. I nearly lost control of everything. Struggling about my faith, school, peer pressure and all. One day, I reflected upon my life and what I really would want to do. It was those days that I began to know & understand more myself and what I would want in life...how I would want to run the wheel of my life. Then there, I found the real joy in serving my fellow youths in the community Christ's Youth in Action. The community leads & guided me to where I am now.. a person more becoming..more determined to face the odds of life. And I guess, it is more of my faith to HIM above that makes me what I am now... Read on ......

'TIME TO CHANGE'

THERE I STOOD INFRONT OF THE MIRROR
STARING AT MY ENTIRE FEATURE.
AND AS I LOOK INTENSELY
I CAME TO SEE THE REAL PERSON IN ME.

FUN WHEN I GAZED AND STARE
I FELT MY LIFE WAS UNAWARE
OF THE THINGS I'VE DONE INTO MYSELF
YET I DIDN'T BOTHER TO TAKE SOME HELP.

I GREW TO HATE WHAT I'VE DONE WRONG
I'VE BEEN IMPRISONED FOR SO VERY LONG
THAT I DON'T KNOW WHERE I SHOULD LEAD
MY FEELINGS ARE BUZZING INTO MY HEAD

I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM
WITH ALL THESE CONFUSION AND SHAM
I CAME TO DOUBT THE PERSON IN ME
FOR I WAS BLINDED I COME NOT TO SEE.

AS I TOOK A DEEP VIEW OF MYSELF
MY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS WERE ALL FIGHTING
STRUGGLING OF WHO'S TO BE THE ONE DOMINATING
YET THE TWO ARE ALL PREVAILING

TOO END MY MISERY
I'LL HAVE TO LEAVE THE PAINFUL PAST FROM MY MEMORY
AND TAKE A TIME TO CHANGE
AND FLY UPON THE WINGS OF MY DREAMS

IF THERE'S ONE THING I HAVE TO DO
I HAVE TO MAKE IT SURE WHAT IS TRUE
AND AS I LEAVE FROM THE MIRROR
I'LL TAKE A TIME TO CHANGE THE NEW CREATURE
AND LEARN FROM MY ERROR.