'Yesterdays Sigh'

Yesterdays entry was more likely about dissappointments...my upsetting mood to some people. It is hard to pull out your feelings when you know some might be hurt. But I am just being true to what I feel. True to my words...and bein true to self.

One of the constant reader of my blog is G. He reacted to me when he read my blog yesterday. Asked me over dinner what made me sad..and the reason of my dissappointments to friends. I told him straight that... that is what I am experiencing at this time. They will just contact me when they need something from me....or that wanting to know the status of my chosen life...if it meets there expected standards...mind you STANDARDS! geesh! that I do not understand..what probably they would want to mean. Sometimes, It seems I am pushing myself more to them and never had any chances of getting any consolation from them. There I go again..bubbling with my all out feelings.

Maybe I'm just wrong on using the word 'EVERYONE'. I think too G is right, that if some friends will read my blog they might react. Might be too unfair to some who really still hold on to me till this time. Well....I reason out to G again.... that if they will read my blog, they (will) know who they are. I don't have any guilt on writing that certain feeling yesterday. That is what I feel..and I am just being true.

Sorry if my melodramatic mood sometimes affects to some. Maybe I should just try to be more careful in using words or maybe better be silent. But I know it is not a good investment for my upcoming baby....I know my baby is affected in someways. I am just being expressive.

I appreciate the comment of one blogger on my sigh yesterday..saying it is a natural for a pregnant woman like me to feel that way...

Really, I have different feelings for the past days. Sometimes waking up in the morning I felt a certain emptiness. Is it because of my soon transition in life? To tell you, I am very much ready and excited for my soon responsibility. Really can't just help to be like lunatic at times. After all, this is me...the Ai in me.