Healing Journey

To anyone who knew me and saw the worst side of me 6 months ago, allow me to reintroduce myself... 😉☺️

I've done some healing.

I have boundaries now.

I'm no longer allow people to speak things against me and against my behalf.

Oh, and I burn bridges when needed. 😉

When I decided to prioritise myself, stay away from toxicity, and engage myself to a more in-depth self-care, that's when healing begins.

It has been 6 months. Free of medications but still ongoing psychotherapy/coaching to help me grow more where I'm at.

Here are some signs that my body is releasing the trauma, and I'm healing:

1. I feel my emotions.

2. I don't feel sick all the time.

3. I look forward to activities that I passionately love doing.

4. I feel less pain.

5. I no longer feel tense and anxious.

6. Exercise to help me mentally stronger. My heart rate is slow and normal and my blood pressure decrease to its normal range. ( no longer on hypertensive drugs)

7. My hobbies return. I feel the need to bake, cook & paint  and  write my heart out.

8. I enjoy eating food like before. Its taste, smell & texture without puking it.

9. Importantly, I'm sleeping at normal time without the aid of atarax ( anxiety drugs) to put me to sleep.

10. Time management is my friend! Such a life saver. I've learned to distinguish between being productive vs. Busy. That, time management is a great support for me not to get overwhelmed with things on my plate each day. I'm more empowered and reaping my goals each day from work related to personal things I wanted to achieve each day.

It is emotional for me because the journey is hard, and it's worth facing and acknowledging all those.

 I'm still the same Ai - kind, loving, and compassionate but I'm no longer the one you can use and abuse. I know where to put my energy for now on to people.

If you're struggling to find healing, know that it takes time and just trust the process. It takes 1 decision for yourself for the better. So decide for yourself.

Know that the best relationship is the relationship you have with yourself! no one else!

Trusting your faith & looking into your inner values, surely helps you get away from the darkest side.

I'm grateful for those who reached out and who checked in with me. You know who you are. To all my father confessors, my circle of friends who stayed with me even late night to talk to me  and my prayer warriors. I will forever thankful for being there.

It has been clearly 6 months, and I deserve to celebrate this win 🥳🎉!

Bonus point: I can now drink alcohol. so pour in the wine please! 🍷

#healingjourney