The Filipino film - Only We Know

What is a great love? 💭

I watched the Filipino film Only We Know on Netflix last night. It's such a heartwarming story full of quiet truths about love and relationships. It made me reflect deeply on the kind of love I’ve known from the past, and even the one I have now.

I used to think love was about sharing the same passions, hobbies, or dreams… that being “compatible” meant liking the same things. But now I’ve learned, it’s more about how great life feels when you’re with that person. It’s not about being the same, but about creating a rhythm together from two different souls who somehow fit in harmony.

There’s a line in the film that asked: “What is a great love?”

That question stayed with me and reflected on it.

When I was younger, love was that kilig to the bones feeling (the butterflies) , the thrill, the excitement that makes your heart race. I thought great love was the one that never ends, the one you end up with.

But growing older taught me something deeper. That sometimes, great loves are the ones that remind you life is still beautiful, still worth living… even after heartbreak. ❤️‍🩹

This film also taught me about loneliness and grieving. How even the most beautiful love stories can end, and how losing someone doesn't mean the love disappears. Sometimes, grief is just love with nowhere to go. We grieve not just the person, but the version of ourselves that existed when we were with them. And yet, from that loneliness, we grow, we learn how to carry love differently, more quietly, more meaningfully

And maybe, loving someone isn’t just about being together, it’s about helping each other grow, even when you’re apart. Because real love doesn’t cage you; it lets you bloom. It’s about wanting the best for each other, even if your paths no longer meet.

The film also touched on companionship. That as we age, we long not just for the one who sweeps us off our feet, but for the one we can sit beside in silence and still feel peace. Someone you can talk to endlessly about nothing and everything, and never grow tired.

No one else can define the relationship you’re in. Not labels, not people, not time! Only the two hearts who choose to understand each other. And sometimes, the sweetest kind of love is friendship. 🌿

Only We Know reminded me that while we’re young, we shouldn’t stop loving just because we’ve been hurt. We shouldn’t stop searching for love because youth gives us the chance to experience many great loves. Each one shapes us, heals us, and teaches us how to love better next time.

Maybe that’s what a great love truly is....not the one that lasts forever, but the one that makes you see life’s beauty again. ✨

So, keep on loving and searching for that great love.

Who knows, it might just be in your neighborhood. 💕

I can highly recommend you watch this film. It is not the typical Filipino cringe love film, but heartwarming and full of wisdom about life and love in general.

Enjoy!
xoAi

Loving Myself as Though My Life Depends on It

I came across a quote by Anita Moorjani that stopped me in my tracks: 

“Self-love is not just about constantly giving yourself praise and telling yourself how awesome you are. It’s about loving the real you, the human you - the person who has feet of clay, who comes undone under criticism, who sometimes fails and disappoints others. It’s about making a commitment to yourself that you will stick by yourself - even if no one else does. That’s what I mean when I say you must love yourself as though your life depends on it, because quite simply, I know without a doubt that it does.”

This resonated so deeply with me because my own journey of healing has taught me that loving myself is not about perfection. It’s about presence and truth.

Last year, I went through one of the most painful seasons of my life. I experienced heartbreak of letting go of an old friendship that was so dear to me, and I lost trust in people who were so close to me. I also lost hope in ways that made me question everything. For a while, I felt broken like I had failed myself and others, like my flaws disqualified me from being loved. Under criticism or rejection, I would crumble inside, and in those moments, self-love felt out of reach.

But choosing to step into therapy changed everything. It became a space where I could unravel safely, where I learned to face my pain without shame. Week by week, I discovered that authenticity, being completely real with myself was the foundation of healing. I didn’t need to pretend to be strong all the time. I just needed to stay with myself, even when it was hard.

Art also became my therapy. With a brush in hand, I could pour out my emotions from grief, hope, anger, and joy onto canvas. Watercolors and acrylics carried the stories my heart couldn’t put into words. Painting taught me that beauty can emerge from brokenness, that colors can heal what words cannot.

Along the way, I’ve surrounded myself with people who value authenticity as much as I do. I’ve let go of the need for shallow connections and leaned into deep, truthful conversations. I’ve realized I no longer have to shrink or hide parts of myself just to belong.

Now, self-love is a promise I make to myself every day:

• To honor my feelings without rushing them away.

• To forgive myself when I stumble.

• To celebrate my growth, even in small steps.

• To stand by myself—even when no one else does.

Anita is right, our lives do depend on it. Because when we love ourselves as we are, with all our cracks and colors, we stop surviving and start living.

So if you need the reminder today like I often do, to let this be it: Love yourself as though your life depends on it. Because it truly does.

much love,

xoAi

The Irony of What Not

Somewhere between growing up with a list of "do’s" from my parents and a digital feed full of "what not to do" from self-proclaimed life gurus, I realized something: life is basically one giant contradiction wrapped in good intentions and irony.

Let’s unpack, shall we?

The Irony of Advice

I was once told, “Just be yourself, and don’t care what people think!”
Cut to five minutes later, someone squints at my outfit and says it’s “brave, bold, seductive… and maybe not modest enough.”

Hmmm.... brave how?
Brave like I slayed a dragon on the way here?
Or brave like I clearly lost a fight with my closet and wore the consequences?

I wasn’t sure, but suddenly I cared a lot.
Scoreboard: Irony – 1, Me – curled up in self-doubt under a questionable jacket or worse a cardigan that screamed Manang ( old woman's) like fashion.

The Irony of Perfection

Perfection is the goal. But be authentic.
Be confident. But stay humble.
Be yourself. But not too much some parts of you might not be "aesthetic." 

But seriously, what even is aesthetic, anyway?

Minimalist neutrals? A curated feed? or just whatever makes other people comfortable with your existence?

The Irony of Self-Care

Bubble baths and face masks as a cure for burnout and stress, never mind the unpaid labor that quietly piles up behind the scenes.
Work-life balance is preached like gospel, but the hustle culture still gets standing ovation.
“Rest is resistance,” they say. But so is pushing through.

So, are we resting agressively now? I don't think so.

I'll admit, I've been guilty of this performative kind of self-care too.

But these days, I'm learning to prioritize rest not just through skincare rituals, but by choosing silence.

Silence from the endless pings of online life.

Silence from the noice of city hustles and people constantly performing productivity.

Sometimes, true self-care is not a scented candle, it is just not being available for everyone.

The Irony of Progress

Thanks to Wi-Fi and mobile gadgets, we’re more connected than ever—yet lonelier than ever.
We chase freedom through routines.
We gain knowledge faster, but somehow lose wisdom in the scroll.

We're evolving, sure, but are we really arriving?

Life, it seems, is full of ironic “what nots.”
Don’t say this. Don’t wear that. Don’t feel too much. Don’t rest too long. Don’t show up too real.

But maybe the trick isn’t to avoid them.
Maybe the real win is to laugh at them, learn from them, and live a little lighter in the process.

So here’s to the irony of what not, the things we’re warned against that somehow end up shaping who we are…
In the best possible, messiest, most gloriously human way.

Cheers to doing it “wrong,” and still turning out just fine.

XO,

Ai

Gratitude in Every Season: Embracing Life with a Thankful Heart

There are countless things in life to be thankful for—many of which we tend to overlook in the hustle of our everyday routines. We often wait for the "big" blessings—promotions, breakthroughs, victories—to trigger our gratitude. But the truth is, every day offers quiet gifts that deserve our recognition: a peaceful morning, a kind word, a safe journey, or simply the ability to breathe freely and feel the sun on our skin.

A friend once shared these wise words with me:

“Life is short,live it. Love is rare, appreciate it. Anger is harmful, release it. Fear is paralyzing, face it. Memories are sweet, cherish them.”

This simple yet profound statement has stayed with me, reminding me of how essential it is to pause and reflect on what truly matters. Let’s unpack each part, because within these lines lies a guide to living more meaningfully.

Life is Short, Live It!

We’ve all heard this before, but have we truly taken it to heart? Life is fragile and unpredictable. Time slips through our fingers whether we’re ready or not. So let’s stop waiting for the "perfect moment" to chase our dreams, reconnect with someone we love, or do something we’ve always wanted to do. Every moment is a gift, and we honor that gift by choosing to live it fully.

Love is Rare. Appreciate It

In a world where relationships can feel fleeting, genuine love, in any form is a treasure. Whether it’s romantic love, the loyalty of a friend, or the warmth of family, let’s not take it for granted. Appreciate the people who stay, support, and uplift you. Tell them they matter. Show them you care.

Anger is Harmful, Release It!

Anger, if held too long, becomes a heavy burden. It consumes more of us than it does the person we’re angry at. Releasing anger doesn’t mean we deny our feelings. It means we choose peace over bitterness. We create space for healing, growth, and grace.

Fear is Paralyzing. Face It!

Fear holds us back often not from danger, but from possibility. It whispers lies about our worth and our chances. But when we face our fears, we take back control. We realize that courage isn’t the absence of fear, but the decision to move forward in spite of it.

Memories are Sweet, Cherish Them

The past is gone, but its echoes remain. In our memories live the laughter, the lessons, and the love that shaped us. Don’t just look back in nostalgia and honor those moments. They’re part of your story, and they deserve a place in your heart.

Living with Thankfulness

Life is a journey made up of ordinary days and extraordinary moments. It isn’t always easy, but within every chapter whether it is joyful or painful, there is something to be grateful for. And even when we feel like we’ve lost much or been denied something we hoped for, there’s another truth that grounds us:

“If we can’t be grateful for what we have, let us at least be thankful for what we have been spared from.”

That shift in perspective can transform our lives. It’s easy to focus on what’s missing, but gratitude redirects our attention to what remains our resilience, our loved ones, our chances to try again.

So today, and every day, may we choose to live with thankful hearts. May we find beauty in simplicity, grace in struggle, and hope in the unknown.

With this, I am thankful for all of you reading this.

much love,

Aixo

A Decade Later: Becoming Me

Seventeen years ago -2008 to be exact, I wrote a post while standing at the crossroads of self-discovery—a bit uncertain yet hopeful, full of questions about purpose, success, and the delicate balance between self and others. 

You can read that blog here: Looking for my Purpose

I see that version of me now with deep compassion, and that I can't help but smile. 😁😊

Because today, I have answers—not all, but enough to walk with certainty.

I'm a fulfilled mum now, raising two teenagers who continue to shape and challenge me in the most beautiful ways. My love for them is no longer just ambitious. It's rooted, intentional, and grounded in presence. I’m still devoted, but I’ve also learned that loving them doesn’t mean losing myself. In fact, I've discovered that the more I love and know myself, the better I show up for them.

And oh, how much I’ve come to love myself. 💓

Self-love isn’t just a buzzword anymore. It’s a daily practice. I'm more focused now, more self-aware. I no longer feel the same need to mirror myself through others' eyes. I know who I am, even if I’m still evolving. I’ve embraced the truth that we are all works in progress—fluid, changing, growing.

I still pursue goals, but now with grace and fire. I'm living with so much passion—especially in the arts. Where photography once gave me light, writing expresses my enormous thoughts, and painting now gives me depth. Through every brushstroke, I pour emotions that words sometimes cannot carry. Art has become my second soul.

And love? I’ve been happily married for 19 years to G, and I can honestly say we have built something truly successful. Not because it’s perfect, but because it’s honest, committed, and constantly nurtured. We’ve grown alongside each other, and that kind of partnership is something I treasure deeply.

Back then, I needed to redefine myself. Today, I can define myself—with clarity, confidence, and a quiet joy. I’ve learned that success isn’t just about material things or even ticking off goals. It’s about alignment. About knowing your worth. About doing things that light up your spirit.

I’m still climbing, still reaching—but now with firmer feet and a lighter heart. And most importantly, I’m enjoying the view along the way.

To the woman I was: thank you for never stop dreaming!

To the woman I am: keep glowing and evolving!

To the woman I’m becoming: I can’t wait to meet you.

Cheers xo,

Ai

This year...

First post for the year..yey!

Oh well, all is doing well. 2010 I think promises us with lots of great thing not only for me but for my children and betterment of my family. Hurrah! we survived another year. More hopes for this year and the coming years. Hopefully trying to get back on track after having baby number 2. As of now, I am working on with the things i wanted to do for myself.... getting back with my hobbies, getting addicted with my newfound hobby and wanting to explore more other options that would somehow satisfy my indulgence with my recent activities. Hopefully this would be a great career for me. I am crossing my fingers for that.

This year I am slowly.....but i think really had to work hard on learning this Polish language. I have all the resources now but i really need to be fluent with this or else i could not do things normally.

There's so many things I wanted to do only that I am taking things slow and one step at a time. I just wanted to be sure with every step I am making. I know i will not fail if I will have the courage coupled with hardwork, everything will surely be successful.


This year.............. i do not know. One thing I know I am ready to face whatever...either all things fail or would be succesful, i know THIS YEAR is going to be a great year for me.

Cheers to that! xxx

For today!

See! I changed my layout today. I just had the chance to transfer everything after some days of rationalizing if i will change my sites layout again. Since, some pictures can't be very visible in the previous layout. Oh well, I think this is better. I will be posting more of my photography next time.

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For today, allow me to mourn for I lost a great friend and a former colleague at work.

To you Ms. Ruby, you will always be in my hearts. Your laughter will always be a sweet music to our ears. God has you in His keepings.

We love you!

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Tomorrow would be my daughter's 2nd birthday. I do not know if I will pursue doing a birthday give-away since my sponsor can only give me a limited prize. And I want to be fair to my readers. Anyhoo, tomorrow willl be Iza's big day but we will celebrate it on Satuday.

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That's all for today!
Stay happy and well.

This stomach pain would kill me someday

Just a quick note before I hit the sheets.

Today, I've been to three different doctors ( internist, gynecologist and surgeon) for proper check-up of my stomach. I've been experiencing stomach pain for the past weeks and I think this is not normal anymore. So, tomorrow I will know what would be the next thing to do aside from the endoscopy test. Though, I am taking some medicines now to stop the pain. I hope everything is fine with me.

I think this stomach pain would really kill me someday'.

where am i?

Summer is up here in Poland. When the weather is warm, it's time to go out with the kids and do some meet and greet with everyone especially with Filipinos in the area.

Where am I past days? oh well...i'll let you know where I've been that makes me busy.

Who is the weaker sex?

I am addicted to facebook. That I do not know why. I just love to exchange opinions with friends. Today there is an ongoing debate with this topic...

WHEN IT COMES TO PAIN, WHO IS THE WEAKER SEX?

I want your honest opinion too.

Have a nice day!

:-D

Blogging is my least priority right now because of my recent birthing. The two children is really my priority at this time. Other than that, i don't feel like writing :-(

Maybe because....

> I do not have enough sleep and rest so that makes me tired.

> Children eats most of my time.

> When I have extra time, i'd rather sleep or treat myself with a good bath.

> I am back to reading. There's a lot of books that is in the shelves and in my list for me to pick up and read. Reading really relaxes me.

> Recently, I am addicted to Facebook and that's where I spent my extra time to chat or that answering quizzes and commenting to friends. I do not know what's with facebook but really i am having fun time there. So, that's replaced my blogging addiction.

> Moreover, I just don't feel like blogging. I would supposed to be blogging a lot about what is here in Poland and how it is to live a Polish life. But then again, most of my life right now is spent at home taking care of my little darlings. When I have really nice things to blog about in here ,oh well, I would surely share. Right at this time, it is more with my musings and ramblings as a mom. Nevertheless, I am loving every bits of my motherhood career.


Hope to be blogging really nice one next time.

1:52 a.m.

Woke up to breastfeed baby Jan, burped him, quickly change nappies and send him back to sleep.

:-* (wink)

That is usually now my everyday activities. They all consumed my time and energy, and yet I am enjoying it. Though there are really moments of complaining coz of the hazzle that I can't sleep real straight.

While feeding him, I had the opportunity to finish the book The Good Earth. Oh try to imagine, a child in my lap latching my breast and a book in my other hand. Waahhhh!

Supermom.

That's how I tried to manage my time and to amused myself as well.

2:32a.m. - my mobile phone rang. I had a missed call from a private caller. That I suspects somebody is trying to ring my phone in the other side of the globe (for sure from the Philippines). Waiting to ring again but it didn't. So i woke up G and told him then. I was kind of nervous. It might be some kind of emergency back home or whatever. I tried to calm myself and send myself back to sleep since Baby Jan is has its own moments at this time. At least, somebody or someone maybe thinking of me somewhere.

Prior to that, I was reading The Good Earth and finally finished it. It was a superbook! I love it! Now, looking forward to see the classical movie as well.

I googled it and found the trailer and the movie in YouTube. Wow!




The problem is...I need to find time to watch the movie of course with G. We need to send children to sleep early so we can have our US moments :-D Yayy!

Next in line, is the book I got from G last easter as gift, One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest by Ken Kesey, another classical book. I have to juggle my time again so I can read the book. That's it!

Exciting!

For today

I am contemplating...

Trying to feel the silence around, the cold winter winds and just being with myself.

I wanted to take a moment to share thoughts, but it seems in my hustle bustle world as a mom sometimes it is hard to stop and contemplate on things. Time so monotonous and sometimes depressing. As time passes by, I think am getting older faster. That's what I feel. There were moments that I feel like the hopes and intentions of tomorrow becomes the regrets and disappointments of yesterday. As each year stretches into the past I find myself further from where I thought I would be.

Three years ago, I lived in the tropics. I gave up my job and tie the knot. I was in the verge of confusion and fear to what would be ahead of that life. I was turned inside out just to finally decide on things. I knew then. I had to make decisions and start a new life over with someone . Singlehood is over and i had to put an end on everything. Decide and free the baggages i have stored inside of me for so long. Take the plunge and head to a new brighter direction, more focused and determined.

Now 3 years, married with two children, still connected with old friends (reconciled to some) and faces I am still here. It may not be the life I am hoping to have or one i thought would have, but this is the life I loved and wanting to have. More peaceful, contented and adored. As I look back, over the last 3 years, I can see I am very fortunate and well blessed. Extremely grateful for all the wonderful things may it be with my faamily, health, wonderful few friends whom I've known in my life. They say with age comes wisdom. In trying times, you will see more of yourself and the bigger picture of what's life all about. It is true! In these lifetime, I have learned so many thing. Most of all, i learned that no matter what & where life leads you, there is always hope. You just have to be true to self and others and take off that plastic mask instead wear the suitable one.

There are always apprehensions along the way and much more trials to surpass. Still there is always a silver lining at the end of every storm. We just have to look for it and appreciate how simple it is. It may not be where you thought or as obvious as u had wished, but it is always there. It is love and hope that makes everything blends and comes out so well.

For today...

I am excited and happily wiggling my toes to take every step forward.

Enjoying the simple yet essential things life is offering.

Feeling pretty all the time amidst the nightmares and bad hair days.

Taking my time to savor the food i am taking.

Praying and grateful for my everydays.

Enjoying every inch of time with my darlings.

Giving a warm smile to evryone.

Being a friend to someone.

Sharing more time with G.

and let go of the past hurts and more forgiving.

That's what I contemplate today.

Tired, Bored and Waiting

TIRED, BORED and WAITING....

That sums up my feeling at this time.

Tired.....
IF your pregnant you will know how tiring it is. I just can't definitely describe it into words but I guess you know the word TIRED. That's what I am feeling right now. Tired of this pregnancy. It's becoming heavy every week plus this baby makes a lot of kicks and movements inside.

Bored...
There is nothing much to do here than taking care of myself more and the baby inside. I felt bored coz of the weather - winter season. I can't wait to see signs of spring or perhaps summer. At this time of winter, I easily gets bored. Nothing much to do and no much action outside the house. Wanting to take a stroll outside and take some more walk but I am bored with going around at the same place everyday. I want to rejuvenate and take a more wonderful view outside our place. Winter deprives me so. So, I am mostly at home with Izabela and taking in charge of the household.

Waiting....

Do you know how it is to wait? Definitely its kind of boring, tiring.. actually a mix of all emotions. Giving birth is just around the corner and that makes me bored and tired. Waiting is not my cup of tea. I am exactly counting the weeks, days, hours, minutes and seconds to hold my second baby. Can't wait..if I could only pull the time and day of my birthing. (sigh) That's how anxious and itchy I am to hold our second baby personally. But I have to take my time and be more patient. If your a mom u will definitely know how it is to wait coz excitement flows in more.

Now, tell me what to do.

Christmas is just around the corner

Yes! that's it...some days more to go before Christmas.

When the first winter snow pour down here last week, i realized christmas is coming and I'm still not prepared for the holidays. Gifts, greetings is still not sent to everyone. I don't want to take the christmas rush shopping but we are planning to buy the necessary stuffs needed in celebrating the holidays like for our christmas dinner and gift giving next weekend. A busy mom like me has to manage time inside and outside the house plus I am pregnant so I could not do things around that easy especially now that it is winter here. It's hard to go out easily. I am so careful everytime coz roads are slippery and prone to accident. Anyhoo, i still have little time and i just have to plan ahead what and where to buy everything so it would be easy.

Hope your now prepared for the coming holidays. Enjoy and don't take the christmas rush.

Emotions and Feelings

Rarely I show emotion to anyone else not unless I am deeply hurt or having trouble with my feelings. Even when I am in a joyful situation, I'd rather not feel like being joyful.

Usually i express it in words or by crying...sobbing like crazy. Often, i let it out to someone whom I could trust and truly understsands me. (G can attest to that *sorry darling). I don't want to show emotions sometimes not because I want to pretend or whatever. It is my way sometimes of measuring how far is my capability of withholding myself from someone. Who could hold back when you sees that everything is not falling into place as you expected it to be? But then, there is strengh to that and it is where you will find your greatest strength when you are in your weakest point. Your capability of seeing and feeling the right perspective of things in the numbness situation. I am human. Therefore, I am emotional, pathetic, unpredictable, reactive & in many ways fighting to be more human becoming.

In some ways, it is how to play life. Not to be showy with a face with emotions nor a heart with feelings. It can be deceiving to self. But then, it can be a scapegoat to ones reality.

I could not comprehend how many times I made effortless move just to get away with draining situations. Situations that would take me to see an emotion. Emotions are so draining, that's how i find it. It eats up all your brain and left your whole system down and weary.

If I could just stop my emotion from feeling the whole day, then it maybe there is exactly more peace from within. And then freedom will just overflow without making extra care to ones feelings.

Why not try to be emotionless sometimes. Why not!

If emotions are feelings and Feelings are emotions, then I want to be emotionless so I could not feel that funky feelings.

TICK TACK TALK

FAMILY TALKS

There were times that we couldn't help but regrets on some aspects of our life. No matter how we truly admit that we have moved on, there comes a time that it will just flash back in our memory and kick our butts that hey! it's still there.
I don't want to be melodramatic in this entry. It's just that, at this every moment, my memory flash back whilst chatting with family over YM. I realized there were lots of instances I miz bonding with family. Most often, my time is spent at work or over with friends. Now, that I am too far away from them, I miz that bonding moments... Simple but quality time with my dad, mom and two super 'makulit' brothers.

ON IZABELA

Oh! how time truly flies. My baby Izabela will be turning one year old next month. No plan yet what to prepare but her mass offering is already scheduled on the 3rd of August. Yes, when babies here turns one year or that anniversary of their baptism, parents or family will offer or sort of present the baby in the church. It's one Polish tradition which they call 'rocznica chrztu'. It's like in the bible where Jesus was presented in the temple. Pretty new to me actually because we don't have such tradition back home. Now, it's time to plan Izabela's birthday party. I don't know how and when but I'd like to plan it the way i want it to be...in a Filipino way. Suggestions anyone?

I kept on bugging my parents, wish they are here to celebrate with us.

That's all for today. Enjoy summer!

All I wanted

All I wanted is to be like this ....





Song: All You wanted - Michelle branch

Looking for my purpose

Sometimes in our life we ponder for what is exactly the meaning of our existence. The purpose of everything. We need an allies to keep us going. We look up to some whom we called our mentors, to inspire us. We seek forgiveness, so we will be accepted with who & what we are. We needed those to fully exist and function normally, perhaps to discover our greatest purpose.

As to how far can we climb in order to reach the thing we are seeking for? Some took limitless & tireless effort just to get what is needed. For some, they ultimately wanting the best material possession, to get high respect in the society. Some only needs the ordinary things. For them it is enough ticket to be happy.

As far me, I am still on the edge of contemplating of what I really want. I have certain goals that I would want to achieve in the future. Slowly, slowly I am taking my steps...Usually doubtful steps. There were apprehensions whether I'll go with some decisions or not. Despite the fact, I am aware that everything involves risk. Anyhow, still trying to weigh and hold on in order to balance both areas of life - Myself & others. As much, I'd like to be successful on both. MYSELF - With my goals, dreams and wanting to acquire not only materially but spiritually. OTHERS - where my devotion & love to my family is my priority. I am so ambitious when it comes to their needs and hoping I could fully sustain them not only materially but emotionally. I know how hard it is to do both. It's how you control & manage things.

To fully function, i guess I need all of these:

I need to redefine myself. Yes! I need to take a look of myself in a full view mirror so as to know what flaws needs further renovation and CHANGES. That goes also redefining my goals & what is just needed to keep me going.

I have to changed my self image. Not only do the mirroring myself but ask others to mirror with me.

Keep myself focused. No matter what happens never give up on things. Go & take a big leap!

Live with passion. Passion is a way to make you get interested & motivated. For sure, it will it be a boring journey if I do things with passion. I truly believe that if we live and do things with passion everything with be too easy to follow.

There it goes. I have to live up to each challenges. Just have to be determined & never look back. Failure come along to keep the fuel of challenge burning. Hope what was listed listed above, could take & lead me to my purpose.

I know the road to get there is rough with lots of curves and holes, to stop me not to move on. I just have to pursue it, coupled with great determination, there's no doubt I'll get to see the end of the road which is my purpose.

* Cheers*

Dreaming of summer heat

The last picture from my previous post was from Thailand. I am an asian but not a Thai. I just love Thailand and i want to go there for a visit someday. Those pics was sent to me by my Italian friend who got married to a Thai & now living a peaceful Thai life.

What prompted me to post those? oh well, because lately I am dreaming of tropical atmosphere. I lived in a tropical world all my life. Then, more than a year ago I moved in this cold world where sun is the most requested goddess of everyday. Before, i wanted to taste a cold weather. How it's like to live in a cold world. Now, that i got to experience it, i came not to like it but like the beauty of it.

Anyhow, my mind spins like strong winds these days. That wanting to take a different directions and that is to be home in the land i called - neverland. When it comes to summer who could'nt think of going back to my home. Back home is where the summer adventure is. In the white sand beaches, foods & never ending summer activities mostly water sports. For the mean time, I just have to be contented of daydreaming with eyes close...think of home...tropical beach, festive moods while sipping a cold mango flavored drink ( oh how i miz it!). Hmmm! That's all i can do for at this time. Nevertheless, i feel good.

The temperature strikes 23 degrees centigrade as i am writing this blog. Whew, my smile reach up to my ears. After all, this has been what i want a temperature that would reach 20 up. So, I could smell that summer sunshine is about to take its turn and that spring time opens its doors for a festive summer mood. The cold polish world is colorful again. All is merry and bright.

Can't wait for summer heat so I can flaunt my tan skin and hopefully drenched with summer sweat. I love it! awww!